Showing posts with label ULYSSES. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ULYSSES. Show all posts

What I am on on Film Studies?

just a rough snap shot...

[photos: my screen shots from Caligula (1979)]


"Oh my! Are you gonna kill me?"

I had a little change of taste lately. Because of my exceeding fascination on film criticism than on other aspects of my life like having a diet or engaging to activities like relationships and toning-up my body (honestly speaking haha!), i am actually learning really fast.


Some decent frames from Caligula

I actually did learn as much as i can take into for the past few weeks and my readings are mainly centered on David Bordwell's writings. I actually love his writings because: (1) it is the only thing accessible in the internet, though not all his works but an ample number; (2) he writes in this interesting intellectual way (duh! of course, Adrian! he's a film theorist) which i really admire ; (3) i am avid follower of the scholarly movement in criticism called Neoformalism.

I have been researching for this movement because of its unique approach to film. That, i will have to discuss in another post.

I have been focusing my research on my criticism for Pulp Fiction (Tarantino, 1994) and i am listening to the podcasts of PhD giants Shannon Clute and Richard Edwards on their discussions on the genre film noir. (here) I recently plugged about 30 podcasts in my iPod to listen to them talk when i am walking or just about to sleep.

I hope i never saw this film

Films i saw:

1) Caligula ("whatever director", 1979) - worst film i have ever seen
2) Ashes of Time Redux (Kar-wai, 2008)
3) Knife in the Water (Polanski, 1962)

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ULYSSES




I'm at Episode 15: Circe and i am on the 3450th line of it and i think it goes on forever. Urgh! i don't want to start again from the beginning. i heavily depended on Harry Blamires' guide on Ulysses which is ass in a way because i don't read Joyce's fifteenth episode closely.


Anyway, good day!

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THE BRILLANTE MENDOZA POST

something to learn from

[photo from village oblivia]





I received the news via a cable TV at home on a certain french Channel and also from the tidbits of CNN and BBC. It took hours before it reached ANC and the late night news shows on major local channels. I knew it was something different and i got the feeling that some sort of political phenomenon was going on. I made quick notes though i could memorize it in my head instantly:

Brillante Mendoza. Wins Prix de la Mise en Scene. Best. Director.
Cannes. Should blog this! 62nd. Beat Tarantino. Ang Lee. Campion. Haneke.
Who won the Palme d'Or?

A few hours later i got a telecast from ANC late night shows and added to my notes:

Michael Haneke. The White Ribbon. Palme d'Or. I Knew it!

A few days later i knew that people will abhor Mendoza for his film Kinatay. Ebert achieved the greatest possible exposure by killing it over his blog and declared it as the "worst film in Cannes' history."

Sometimes it's just a pain to dwell on this issue right away. One reason is that, Roger Ebert wins all the time because he is "the most influential film critic in the world." Another reason is that I, and maybe 99% of the Filipino audience, haven't seen the film.

I figure, i need an overnight sleep to refresh my mind and start anew. After reading Ebert's 'butchery' here, and also Noel Vera's counter-'Ebert' post here and an response-to-Ebert's-post post from Michael Mirasol here, i came to a naive conclusion (might be derive from a simplistic logic i had when i was high schooler): people have a tendency to overreact over things that does not seemed to matter because it happened a long time ago. Of course, some of you might judge me as a purely hypocritical, simplistic, even irrational and derogatory but i say to you (I quote from ULYSSES): "HISTORY IS NIGHTMARE FROM WHICH I AM TRYING TO AWAKE."

The volume of comments on Ebert post from Filipino readers reminds me of a shoal of fish swimming in circles and when a big fish approach to prey, they disrupt from their cylindrical formation. They have a tendency to crumble from their arguments when one big 'fish' disrupts them and prey on them. But this is a natural phenomena by nature. It seems that the big fish comes in the form of Mendoza who achieves a complete disruption of the equilibrium these people used to have. Now, they are appalled even faulted at the thought that a Filipino 'predator' manage to create such a massive atrocity which ironically launched Mendoza's stature to unbelievable heights of publicity (maybe in the web --- of course Hayden Kho is central to our lives today) and a first time this happened in Philippine cinema.

But i smell of a bigger fish at bay, he lurks behind Mendoza, Ebert, and the sad Filipino commentators of Ebert's post: this is the fish that crumbled most civilizations in history and even change the heart of Medieval age: DOGMATISM. To rely on certain dogmas is to forge hell in front of them, a cause of human degradation and the advent of puritanism. Dogma.

Dogmatism is not a philosophical concept because it is sick to treat it as a systematic conceptual framework of thoughts and idea. One famous dogma of science during 1500s tortured the thoughts of Galileo Galilei for formulating that the moon has craters and by postulating the all bodies fall at the same rate when drop at the same height. The Medieval church says it heresy. God forgive them.

What faces us here, and i am not pointing to Ebert's assertion or some comments from his readers or anyone else, is a historical question and also a question to ask oneself: Is it heresey for Mendoza to create a film that disturbs some people to their primal senses? We might think it is fault but let the magic time unfold and maybe after two hundred years Kinatay might be considered as the prerequisite to a portion of one's history, if not in cinema, that has evolved to its maturity. We might not know but we have to note, if not to avoid, the dogmatism attached to the issue, that this dogmatism by historical standards is invalid at the time we uttered the words: it is the worst film of all, do not watch it my friends. It's demonic. It's purely evil.

Such mentality is least appreciated in film criticism and even in art criticism. Theorist of literature have proved that works from the 1800s have been historical variable and for each generation, one may see it the other way around. To put Kinatay, or other 'ultra-anti-audience films' like Pasolini's infamous Salo (1975), in history is to treat it with respect, as much as people disrespect it.

Human beings have evolve surely. TO subscribe to this fruitless dogmatism and to avoid the variability of art reception to history is to be medieval. We are in the twenty-first century where the very fabric of every human thought and the whole of the universe is a series of QUESTIONABLE and FALSIFIABLE CONCEPT. Even our existence is a questionable concept.

Did i subscribe to dogmatism in writing this post? YES, I did.

I am a medieval person.

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BUSY, READING ULYSSES

just a peek


ULYSSES and the Sirens


Just to let you know that I'm alive and breathing. Yes. I am busy, very busy reading "the greatest novel of the century", ULYSSES, by James Joyce. I have set aside film studies to key in to one of the greatest works in modern literature, to appreciate it eternally and to understand how one can create such a life-force. One can learn a lot from Joyce as a writer and as a reader. When one reads ULYSSES, one has welcome a great challenge. He welcomes Joyce's manifestation as a writer, as the artist of the soul, and should consider Ulysses not a book but a work of art. Ulysses is, i have to admit this, practically an easy read.

Though famous for keeping critics and literary scholars busy for the next three hundred years because of its style and literary puns and allusions, this is not central to ULYSSES. What is central to ULYSSES is life. Life as it is in Dublin, or anywhere else, and through this stream of life in which the main characters (Bloom, Molly, and Stephen) dwell, creates an almost universal moment (the whole of the 673 pages is shot in a single day, June 16, 1904) so powerful it reaches into us, as readers, and changes our own dispositions, sense of being, and perhaps our own lives.

It immortalizes the ordinary modern man.

I'm on Episode (Chapter) 11, Sirens.

Ciao!

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PERSONAL NOTES:

Will resume film studies after reading ULYSSES.

I'm preparing also for a camping activity this coming Saturday at Mt. Makiling, wish me luck. May God provide us the best way through the challenges that awaits us there.

Go Team Harot!
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100 BEST NOVELS OF THE 20th Century

on literature
[source]



Books.

This is polled by the Modern Library Editorial Board.

From their website:

"The editors of the Modern Library are privileged to have the assistance of a distinguished Board made up of celebrated authors, historians, critics, and publishing luminaries. The members of the Board, listed below, play an integral role in contributing suggestions and advice throughout the year. In 1998 and 1999, members of the Modern Library Board participated in the "100 Best" project, voting on the 100 Best Novels and 100 Best Non-fiction works, respectively."

BOARD'S LIST:

  1. ULYSSES by James Joyce (reading)
  2. THE GREAT GATSBY by F. Scott Fitzgerald (have read)
  3. A PORTRAIT OF THE ARTIST AS A YOUNG MAN by James Joyce (will read)
  4. LOLITA by Vladimir Nabokov
  5. BRAVE NEW WORLD by Aldous Huxley
  6. THE SOUND AND THE FURY by William Faulkner (will read)
  7. CATCH-22
  8. DARKNESS AT NOON by Arthur Koestler
  9. SONS AND LOVERS by D.H. Lawrence
  10. THE GRAPES OF WRATH by John Steinbeck
  11. UNDER THE VOLCANO by Malcolm Lowry
  12. THE WAY OF ALL FLESH by Samuel Butler
  13. 1984 by George Orwell
  14. I, CLAUDIUS by Robert Graves
  15. TO THE LIGHTHOUSE by Virginia Woolf (have read)
  16. AN AMERICAN TRAGEDY by Theodore Dreiser
  17. THE HEART IS A LONELY HUNTER by Carson McCullers
  18. SLAUGHTERHOUSE-FIVE by Kurt Vonnegut
  19. INVISIBLE MAN by Ralph Ellison
  20. NATIVE SON by Richard Wright
  21. HENDERSON THE RAIN KING by Saul Bellow
  22. APPOINTMENT IN SAMARRA by John O'Hara
  23. U.S.A. (trilogy) by John Dos Passos
  24. WINESBURG, OHIO by Sherwood Anderson
  25. A PASSAGE TO INDIA by E.M. Forster
  26. THE WINGS OF THE DOVE by Henry James
  27. THE AMBASSADORS by Henry James
  28. TENDER IS THE NIGHT by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  29. THE STUDS LONIGAN TRILOGY by James T. Farrell
  30. THE GOOD SOLDIER by Ford Madox Ford
  31. ANIMAL FARM by George Orwell
  32. THE GOLDEN BOWL by Henry James
  33. SISTER CARRIE by Theodore Dreiser
  34. A HANDFUL OF DUST by Evelyn Waugh
  35. AS I LAY DYING by William Faulkner
  36. ALL THE KING'S MEN by Robert Penn Warren
  37. THE BRIDGE OF SAN LUIS REY by Thornton Wilder
  38. HOWARDS END by E.M. Forster
  39. GO TELL IT ON THE MOUNTAIN by James Baldwin
  40. THE HEART OF THE MATTER by Graham Greene
  41. LORD OF THE FLIES by William Golding (have read)
  42. DELIVERANCE by James Dickey
  43. A DANCE TO THE MUSIC OF TIME (series) by Anthony Powell
  44. POINT COUNTER POINT by Aldous Huxley
  45. THE SUN ALSO RISES by Ernest Hemingway
  46. THE SECRET AGENT by Joseph Conrad
  47. NOSTROMO by Joseph Conrad
  48. THE RAINBOW by D.H. Lawrence
  49. WOMEN IN LOVE by D.H. Lawrence
  50. TROPIC OF CANCER by Henry Miller
  51. THE NAKED AND THE DEAD by Norman Mailer
  52. PORTNOY'S COMPLAINT by Philip Roth (have read)
  53. PALE FIRE by Vladimir Nabokov
  54. LIGHT IN AUGUST by William Faulkner
  55. ON THE ROAD by Jack Kerouac
  56. THE MALTESE FALCON by Dashiell Hammett
  57. PARADE'S END by Ford Madox Ford
  58. THE AGE OF INNOCENCE by Edith Wharton
  59. ZULEIKA DOBSON by Max Beerbohm
  60. THE MOVIEGOER by Walker Percy
  61. DEATH COMES FOR THE ARCHBISHOP by Willa Cather
  62. FROM HERE TO ETERNITY by James Jones
  63. THE WAPSHOT CHRONICLES by John Cheever
  64. THE CATCHER IN THE RYE by J.D. Salinger (have read)
  65. A CLOCKWORK ORANGE by Anthony Burgess
  66. OF HUMAN BONDAGE by W. Somerset Maugham
  67. HEART OF DARKNESS by Joseph Conrad
  68. MAIN STREET by Sinclair Lewis
  69. THE HOUSE OF MIRTH by Edith Wharton
  70. THE ALEXANDRIA QUARTET by Lawrence Durell
  71. A HIGH WIND IN JAMAICA by Richard Hughes
  72. A HOUSE FOR MR BISWAS by V.S. Naipaul
  73. THE DAY OF THE LOCUST by Nathanael West
  74. A FAREWELL TO ARMS by Ernest Hemingway
  75. SCOOP by Evelyn Waugh
  76. THE PRIME OF MISS JEAN BRODIE by Muriel Spark
  77. FINNEGANS WAKE by James Joyce
  78. KIM by Rudyard Kipling
  79. A ROOM WITH A VIEW by E.M. Forster
  80. BRIDESHEAD REVISITED by Evelyn Waugh
  81. THE ADVENTURES OF AUGIE MARCH by Saul Bellow
  82. ANGLE OF REPOSE by Wallace Stegner
  83. A BEND IN THE RIVER by V.S. Naipaul
  84. THE DEATH OF THE HEART by Elizabeth Bowen
  85. LORD JIM by Joseph Conrad
  86. RAGTIME by E.L. Doctorow
  87. THE OLD WIVES' TALE by Arnold Bennett
  88. THE CALL OF THE WILD by Jack London (have read)
  89. LOVING by Henry Green
  90. MIDNIGHT'S CHILDREN by Salman Rushdie
  91. TOBACCO ROAD by Erskine Caldwell
  92. IRONWEED by William Kennedy
  93. THE MAGUS by John Fowles
  94. WIDE SARGASSO SEA by Jean Rhys
  95. UNDER THE NET by Iris Murdoch
  96. SOPHIE'S CHOICE by William Styron
  97. THE SHELTERING SKY by Paul Bowles
  98. THE POSTMAN ALWAYS RINGS TWICE by James M. Cain
  99. THE GINGER MAN by J.P. Donleavy
  100. THE MAGNIFICENT AMBERSONS by Booth Tarkington

The READER'S LIST:


  1. ATLAS SHRUGGED by Ayn Rand (have read)
  2. THE FOUNTAINHEAD by Ayn Rand
  3. BATTLEFIELD EARTH by L. Ron Hubbard
  4. THE LORD OF THE RINGS by J.R.R. Tolkien (have read)
  5. TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD by Harper Lee
  6. 1984 by George Orwell
  7. ANTHEM by Ayn Rand
  8. WE THE LIVING by Ayn Rand
  9. MISSION EARTH by L. Ron Hubbard
  10. FEAR by L. Ron Hubbard
  11. ULYSSES by James Joyce
  12. CATCH-22 by Joseph Heller
  13. THE GREAT GATSBY by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  14. DUNE by Frank Herbert
  15. THE MOON IS A HARSH MISTRESS by Robert Heinlein
  16. STRANGER IN A STRANGE LAND by Robert Heinlein
  17. A TOWN LIKE ALICE by Nevil Shute
  18. BRAVE NEW WORLD by Aldous Huxley
  19. THE CATCHER IN THE RYE by J.D. Salinger
  20. ANIMAL FARM by George Orwell
  21. GRAVITY'S RAINBOW by Thomas Pynchon
  22. THE GRAPES OF WRATH by John Steinbeck (have read)
  23. SLAUGHTERHOUSE FIVE by Kurt Vonnegut
  24. GONE WITH THE WIND by Margaret Mitchell
  25. LORD OF THE FLIES by William Golding
  26. SHANE by Jack Schaefer
  27. TRUSTEE FROM THE TOOLROOM by Nevil Shute
  28. A PRAYER FOR OWEN MEANY by John Irving
  29. THE STAND by Stephen King
  30. THE FRENCH LIEUTENANT'S WOMAN by John Fowles
  31. BELOVED by Toni Morrison (have read)
  32. THE WORM OUROBOROS by E.R. Eddison
  33. THE SOUND AND THE FURY by William Faulkner
  34. LOLITA by Vladimir Nabokov
  35. MOONHEART by Charles de Lint
  36. ABSALOM, ABSALOM! by William Faulkner
  37. OF HUMAN BONDAGE by W. Somerset Maugham
  38. WISE BLOOD by Flannery O'Connor
  39. UNDER THE VOLCANO by Malcolm Lowry
  40. FIFTH BUSINESS by Robertson Davies
  41. SOMEPLACE TO BE FLYING by Charles de Lint
  42. ON THE ROAD by Jack Kerouac
  43. HEART OF DARKNESS by Joseph Conrad
  44. YARROW by Charles de Lint
  45. AT THE MOUNTAINS OF MADNESS by H.P. Lovecraft
  46. ONE LONELY NIGHT by Mickey Spillane
  47. MEMORY AND DREAM by Charles de Lint
  48. TO THE LIGHTHOUSE by Virginia Woolf
  49. THE MOVIEGOER by Walker Percy
  50. TRADER by Charles de Lint
  51. THE HITCHHIKER'S GUIDE TO THE GALAXY by Douglas Adams
  52. THE HEART IS A LONELY HUNTER by Carson McCullers
  53. THE HANDMAID'S TALE by Margaret Atwood
  54. BLOOD MERIDIAN by Cormac McCarthy
  55. A CLOCKWORK ORANGE by Anthony Burgess
  56. ON THE BEACH by Nevil Shute
  57. A PORTRAIT OF THE ARTIST AS A YOUNG MAN by James Joyce
  58. GREENMANTLE by Charles de Lint
  59. ENDER'S GAME by Orson Scott Card
  60. THE LITTLE COUNTRY by Charles de Lint
  61. THE RECOGNITIONS by William Gaddis
  62. STARSHIP TROOPERS by Robert Heinlein
  63. THE SUN ALSO RISES by Ernest Hemingway
  64. THE WORLD ACCORDING TO GARP by John Irving
  65. SOMETHING WICKED THIS WAY COMES by Ray Bradbury
  66. THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE by Shirley Jackson
  67. AS I LAY DYING by William Faulkner
  68. TROPIC OF CANCER by Henry Miller
  69. INVISIBLE MAN by Ralph Ellison
  70. THE WOOD WIFE by Terri Windling
  71. THE MAGUS by John Fowles
  72. THE DOOR INTO SUMMER by Robert Heinlein
  73. ZEN AND THE ART OF MOTORCYCLE MAINTENANCE by Robert Pirsig
  74. I, CLAUDIUS by Robert Graves
  75. THE CALL OF THE WILD by Jack London
  76. AT SWIM-TWO-BIRDS by Flann O'Brien
  77. FARENHEIT 451 by Ray Bradbury
  78. ARROWSMITH by Sinclair Lewis
  79. WATERSHIP DOWN by Richard Adams
  80. NAKED LUNCH by William S. Burroughs
  81. THE HUNT FOR RED OCTOBER by Tom Clancy
  82. GUILTY PLEASURES by Laurell K. Hamilton
  83. THE PUPPET MASTERS by Robert Heinlein
  84. IT by Stephen King
  85. V. by Thomas Pynchon
  86. DOUBLE STAR by Robert Heinlein
  87. CITIZEN OF THE GALAXY by Robert Heinlein
  88. BRIDESHEAD REVISITED by Evelyn Waugh
  89. LIGHT IN AUGUST by William Faulkner
  90. ONE FLEW OVER THE CUCKOO'S NEST by Ken Kesey
  91. A FAREWELL TO ARMS by Ernest Hemingway
  92. THE SHELTERING SKY by Paul Bowles
  93. SOMETIMES A GREAT NOTION by Ken Kesey
  94. MY ANTONIA by Willa Cather
  95. MULENGRO by Charles de Lint
  96. SUTTREE by Cormac McCarthy
  97. MYTHAGO WOOD by Robert Holdstock
  98. ILLUSIONS by Richard Bach
  99. THE CUNNING MAN by Robertson Davies
  100. THE SATANIC VERSES by Salman Rushdie
ULYSSES, the book that i have been reading lately ranked number one. This is an affirmation of Anthony Bugress', author of Clockwork Orange which was a Kubrick classic, quoted appraisal of the book: "The greatest novel of the century."

Will go swimming today! Wee! Bye for now!

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What's bugging me [part 2]

A note on my freaky disappearance




I am turning medieval.

I've hit film books and lit books of all sizes.

I am mixed up with everything going on: noises from the other room (it's empty), scratches on my face, and a lot of 'happiness' all around.

My tendencies:

1) Adrian went Neoformalist:

I read some of the articles from David Bordwell and I am so absorbed by his essay on Historical Poetics of Cinema (download here) i wished i was never born.

2) Adrian went to read Bordwell's FILM ART for the second time:

My first approach to Bordwell's Film Art was a bit off. I guess that time i wanted a more simplified explanation on aesthetics of film. But on my second look (because i am turning neoformalist) Bordwell's book has pretty simple explanations.

3) Adrian went to read ULYSSES with a guide

I am on Episode 6 (HADES) and i stopped in the middle of Blooms thoughts about the woman peering through the window of their carriage, and Mr. Simon Dedalus was there, and Martin Cunningham was there, and Mr. Jack Power. I went to the CAL Library to grab a book for a guide on reading ULYSSES and i found Harry Blamire's The New Bloomsday Book: A Guide Through Ulysses (Revised Edition Keyed to the Corrected Text) (1988). It was worth reading every bit because, for i also believe that Ulysses is a big book of theological allusions, Blamires focused on exploring such themes.

So yes, i will not be updating my blog regularly to focus on my extensive studies on FILM and acquiring the Neoformalist attitude of a critic.

What to expect:

1) Essay on Neoformalism
2) My first ever (academic) critique on a film
3) Essay about ULYSSES

Okay! Bye for now!

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SLEEPLESS in HELL!

a short commentary

Becoming senseless and lethargic on a Tuesday morning, when the birds chirp (pretty annoying) and cats barked at you in the lobby and an awful sound from the other room. I just can't concentrate on my last and final paper to edit for mg English 10. Sitting here alone in the lobby, waiting for the dew to drop on me and insisting that The Cranberries was the hottest rock band of the 90s. I don't really know why i included Hiroshima Mon Amour (1959) in this senseless blog post. Well, i just got four sets of DVD today, i mean yesterday. It includes Hiroshima, of course.

1) Hiroshima Mon Amour (Alain Resnais, 1959)
2) Shoot that Piano Player (Francois Truffaut, 1960)
3) The Piano (Jane Campion, 1993) [it shared Palme D'Or with Farewell My Concubine (1993) at Cannes]
4) Studio Ghibli Pack which includes significant Takahata and Miyazaki works.

This is my Lenten Pack. I think my younger cousins, ages 2 years old to sixteen years old will appreciate the Studio Ghibli pack and rest would just be my viewing pleasure unless my mother would insist or my father or my grandma or my aunt or my other aunt.



ULYSSES

I just started reading (again, for a try) ULYSSES by James Joyce, to what Anthony Bugress and the rest of English Literature declared as "the greatest book of the century." I started reading at Starbucks yesterday (technically speaking). I ordered a hot Caramel Macchiato Venti and a Danish at around 12 o'clock, supposed to be my lunch but i didn't feel like eating so i had coffee at the 'best coffee house in town.' To my own surprise i find James Joyce enjoyable that Virginia Woolf.

My recent purchase of books includes:

1) A Portrait of A Young Man as An Artist d/w Dubliners (James Joyce, P313.00)
2) Ulysses (Hans Gabler Edition) (James Joyce, P616.00)
3) The Second Common Reader (Virginia Woolf, P280)

Okay, P1000+ pesos for books only. I hope these would not end up in closet cabinet again. Especially ULYSSES which i have been dying to read.

Ciao!



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ULYSSES

a reminiscence



The female 'Yes'

Yes, I remember quite well how i started to love writing. I wanted to write his words, his sentences, i thirst every punctuation there is of what some considered as one of greatest novels of all time, his greatest work, ULYSSES.

Yes, this would be a better comeback post, I figure. This is a new beginning. I shed away my body and have awoken from my reveries. I wanted a fresh eye to scope not only the beauty of films but the beauty of literature. So i started: I opened the books of James Joyce and the fruitful Virginia Woolf to imagine a new life.

A few days ago, I realized: is this what makes a life? To be crossed upon by mishaps and tribulations, or to be reminded by the arrival of one's extinction, to be pleased by death, death as we know it for what it is, for how it will be, to be visited by splitting atom of the mind, to be restrained from the daily life you always live: to be sick. How calm this morning! When i woke up, when i started my own ritual to open a book and read a line or two and shut it up, and i heard the morning breeze banging through my window shaking my own life, waking me up, lifting me up, up towards that fine old morning beside the sea. I jumped. I plunged into my day, into the hours that i counted, and sighed, and blushed, and fled, and hopped. There is this sense of possibility, the breaking of the waves, the toiling of my reveries, and all i wanted to do is write, write up there on the wooded branch, on the concrete bay window, on the sea with the waters rushing towards you, and you could hear immensely the beating of my heart, the waves as you know it, the floating and singing jellyfish flying through the shoals, the wind, my heart and you together.

I would love to continue this stream of consciousness, but i have to break it. I used to write good ones when i was young at heart. Now i couldn't. I don't have the power to write beautiful, free flowing thoughts, to flesh out characters and stories. Four years ago I started this large project, a novel that, according to my diary last March 2005, would be 'one of the greatest of all time equivalent to that of Ulysses.' It is shaped and structured by thoughts from character to character. I never imagined myself writing that. But i did. I am still at Chapter five.

Anyway, im still in remission from the Sickness which ate up a week of my life.

The clip above is from the film Bloom (2005). It is a soliloquy by Molly Bloom and it marked the the ending of Ulysses. I quote from Joyce:

"...and then he asked me would I yes to say yes my mountain flower and first I put my arms around him yes and drew him down to me so he could feel my breasts all perfume yes and his heart was going like mad and yes I said yes I will Yes"
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